So,another day feeling miserable cause of a fucking mark...It's my fault for doing the work at the last moment,still I don't get how other people who do less or nothing at all get to accomplish something in life?
I'm thinking of ways to change myself but I just can't find the power or persistence to succeed even if I have come to a decision and put it into action I trip on the road or get sidetracked.I'm not making myself feel better by drinking or smoking just because I'm either too proud to do it and do not want to show weakness,realise I might be weak or cause I don't wanna gain any weight by doing so... which is pathetic and I hate myself for that!
There's a song in my mother language which says:
Tell me your best lie ever
Do your best at the end
Trick my mind
I need it please.
I'm at the point (for many years now) that I don't trust my judgement,I doubt everything and stuff that I can't even express in neither english or my mother language.
That's all I had to say tonight,anything that happens to me it is solely my fault.
I guess I'm weak.
I'm thinking of ways to change myself but I just can't find the power or persistence to succeed even if I have come to a decision and put it into action I trip on the road or get sidetracked.I'm not making myself feel better by drinking or smoking just because I'm either too proud to do it and do not want to show weakness,realise I might be weak or cause I don't wanna gain any weight by doing so... which is pathetic and I hate myself for that!
There's a song in my mother language which says:
Tell me your best lie ever
Do your best at the end
Trick my mind
I need it please.
I'm at the point (for many years now) that I don't trust my judgement,I doubt everything and stuff that I can't even express in neither english or my mother language.
That's all I had to say tonight,anything that happens to me it is solely my fault.
I guess I'm weak.
