Happy New Year everyone!
Today is my birthday.The reason I'm writing to you is to ask something.
On your birthday do you have the feeling like it's not your actual day but an ordinary day?
I get this feeling,I feel like everyone else is having more fun on their birthday and whenever they go out and stuff,yet I don't take any pleasure out of it,whether it is partying,having lunch with friends or anything else.
Another reason I'm posting this day,does anyone of you feel like they don't have the power to do anything?For example,I have some assignments that are due to next friday,I spend my holidays in university accommodation to do work (which as you understand I haven't).I just can't get myself to do anything regarding writing essays,not only I feel tired all the time and lazy but here's something interesting I've been told I'm not lazy but if something doesn't interest me I just can't force myself to do it.Yet I wonder if I could change my course to what I really want,I still think I would be the same...I don't really know what's wrong with me I can't even understand myself and believe me it weakens my soul,body and mind...
Anyway that's almost all,I won't get into more details cause as I told you I feel tired of repeating myself without having any changes in whatever it is I'm heading to...
Today is my birthday.The reason I'm writing to you is to ask something.
On your birthday do you have the feeling like it's not your actual day but an ordinary day?
I get this feeling,I feel like everyone else is having more fun on their birthday and whenever they go out and stuff,yet I don't take any pleasure out of it,whether it is partying,having lunch with friends or anything else.
Another reason I'm posting this day,does anyone of you feel like they don't have the power to do anything?For example,I have some assignments that are due to next friday,I spend my holidays in university accommodation to do work (which as you understand I haven't).I just can't get myself to do anything regarding writing essays,not only I feel tired all the time and lazy but here's something interesting I've been told I'm not lazy but if something doesn't interest me I just can't force myself to do it.Yet I wonder if I could change my course to what I really want,I still think I would be the same...I don't really know what's wrong with me I can't even understand myself and believe me it weakens my soul,body and mind...
Anyway that's almost all,I won't get into more details cause as I told you I feel tired of repeating myself without having any changes in whatever it is I'm heading to...
