It's been a little more than a month since I last posted,it was supposed to be a daily thing but it turned out different.Anyway,I'll get to the point.
I might have mentioned it before,do you ever get sick of your own life or afraid of the future?I do... There are moments when you're hanging out with friends let's say but you feel completely out of space for no apparent reason,like thinking about everything I've done in my life till then and feeling like I'm drowning in a pool filled with my unfulfilled dreams and failures.Self hatred,understanding that the enemy is no one else but myself,a chilling awareness running through my blood that makes me wanna hide in the deepest forest or the darkest corner or someplace I'll feel safe and confident enough to make something of myself,something like an accomplishment without any regrets but pride.
Other than that it's not easy to be introverted and numb at the same time,not allowing yourself to cry even when you're alone,someone would ask why are you doing this to yourself,I guess I'll feel ashamed if I cry.Don't know how this thought got stuck in my head...
Anyway that's all I wanted to write about,hope everyone IF anyone is reading my blog is alright and have a wonderful day/night :)
I might have mentioned it before,do you ever get sick of your own life or afraid of the future?I do... There are moments when you're hanging out with friends let's say but you feel completely out of space for no apparent reason,like thinking about everything I've done in my life till then and feeling like I'm drowning in a pool filled with my unfulfilled dreams and failures.Self hatred,understanding that the enemy is no one else but myself,a chilling awareness running through my blood that makes me wanna hide in the deepest forest or the darkest corner or someplace I'll feel safe and confident enough to make something of myself,something like an accomplishment without any regrets but pride.
Other than that it's not easy to be introverted and numb at the same time,not allowing yourself to cry even when you're alone,someone would ask why are you doing this to yourself,I guess I'll feel ashamed if I cry.Don't know how this thought got stuck in my head...
Anyway that's all I wanted to write about,hope everyone IF anyone is reading my blog is alright and have a wonderful day/night :)
