It's the middle of summer vacation.There is nothing for me to do or enjoy.Keep going through the motions as always,cause there's not a chance of reaching the deepest parts of my soul,find answers to bothersome questions.Note I'm home alone once again but it doesn't change the fact that I don't feel independent,paradoxically every time I'm getting more insecure.
Sometimes the world,the surroundings,the people I have to face every day (relatives,friends or better individuals I choose to call friends depending on my mood) seem to create a feeling of insignificance making me look like a small child.Whether I discuss my problem/s or not it always reaches this point "It might be your fault" or "Alright I'm the one who causes all of your problems I'm doing everything wrong" (that's my mother's quote),so basically I always get the blame.
I figured if someone is reading this might not,well possibly will not understand what exactly is my problem...due to my poor writing skills.To all of you which I'm pretty sure won't figure it out,the reason I'm writing down this stuff is to try and lift some weight off my shoulders.
I've talk to people I trust (sometimes) for things that trouble me and it does help to speak out about deeds that may worry you yet it's impermanent.
To conclude I'll be posting regularly here as often as I can in an attempt to help myself get over (for good) the difficulties I've been facing for a very long time.
See you soon,
Moody being
Sometimes the world,the surroundings,the people I have to face every day (relatives,friends or better individuals I choose to call friends depending on my mood) seem to create a feeling of insignificance making me look like a small child.Whether I discuss my problem/s or not it always reaches this point "It might be your fault" or "Alright I'm the one who causes all of your problems I'm doing everything wrong" (that's my mother's quote),so basically I always get the blame.
I figured if someone is reading this might not,well possibly will not understand what exactly is my problem...due to my poor writing skills.To all of you which I'm pretty sure won't figure it out,the reason I'm writing down this stuff is to try and lift some weight off my shoulders.
I've talk to people I trust (sometimes) for things that trouble me and it does help to speak out about deeds that may worry you yet it's impermanent.
To conclude I'll be posting regularly here as often as I can in an attempt to help myself get over (for good) the difficulties I've been facing for a very long time.
See you soon,
Moody being
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