Just woke up.Filled with anger which I don't show,trying to keep everything inside,cause speaking out doesn't make it easier it just irritates me more (especially when I'm talking to my mother).
Don't get me wrong I love my mother,it's just...She's so overprotecting!I mean come on I'm an adult I CAN take care of myself!The excuse that's always coming up "I do trust you,I just don't just the world" so what?!How am I supposed to live my life if she's acting like this all the time?
I've never given any rights to her to doubt me,for the last 2 years I've been staying home and whenever I was going out it was to watch a film...Now that I've actually finished school forever (not a big fan as you can understand) I've been "going out" almost everyday for walks and such things and she's expecting me to be back by 12.I forgot to mention I'm living in a very small town which is not as dangerous as she says (always exaggerating god!).She keeps calling me all the time I can understand she wants to know if I'm okay but she doesn't get that I want to keep some things for myself,she wants to know every little detail and it just makes me feel weak every time it's happening cause I feel like I won't be able to make it on my own.
Trying to talk things out doesn't get me anywhere,it's just a hole in the water.I've tried to act strict,compassionate and anything but it always ends like this "alright I'm doing everything wrong,whatever your problem is it's my fault"BLAH BLAH!!That's a hit below the belt...Honestly I didn't think she could be the problem but now I do,she even said she doesn't trust me anymore cause I don't give her a full report of what I'm doing when I go out.
Most of you will think I'm wrong,how do I know?Everybody says so...
Don't get me wrong I love my mother,it's just...She's so overprotecting!I mean come on I'm an adult I CAN take care of myself!The excuse that's always coming up "I do trust you,I just don't just the world" so what?!How am I supposed to live my life if she's acting like this all the time?
I've never given any rights to her to doubt me,for the last 2 years I've been staying home and whenever I was going out it was to watch a film...Now that I've actually finished school forever (not a big fan as you can understand) I've been "going out" almost everyday for walks and such things and she's expecting me to be back by 12.I forgot to mention I'm living in a very small town which is not as dangerous as she says (always exaggerating god!).She keeps calling me all the time I can understand she wants to know if I'm okay but she doesn't get that I want to keep some things for myself,she wants to know every little detail and it just makes me feel weak every time it's happening cause I feel like I won't be able to make it on my own.
Trying to talk things out doesn't get me anywhere,it's just a hole in the water.I've tried to act strict,compassionate and anything but it always ends like this "alright I'm doing everything wrong,whatever your problem is it's my fault"BLAH BLAH!!That's a hit below the belt...Honestly I didn't think she could be the problem but now I do,she even said she doesn't trust me anymore cause I don't give her a full report of what I'm doing when I go out.
Most of you will think I'm wrong,how do I know?Everybody says so...
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